… and so it is with therapy with my trusted psychologist. Dr Croskin has been more than a psychologist during my transition into post-menopause. She has been my spiritual guru, my menopause buddy (been through it all herself) and occasionally my gardening guru.
During my treatment-
I have learned to stop fighting with myself and to go with the flow.
I have learned to share my feelings with my family (not something that comes naturally to me).
I have learned how to work with Dr Croskin instead of folding my metaphorical arms and being stubborn.
I have learned to be brave and talk through my childhood and early adult trauma… better out than in.
And finally, and most importantly, I have learned to have faith. Faith in God and faith in myself.
I feel a Nanny McPhee quote coming on –
“When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay. When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go.”
So here I am, ready for this afternoon’s penultimate visit, filled with mixed emotions. On one hand I do not need Dr Croskin’s help anymore and I am so proud of how far I have come since the first day I walked into her consulting room. On the other, I will miss our weekly visits and am filled with sadness that they are coming to an end. I know that I can pop back to see her in the future if I feel I need to, like a safety net, but I am still a little scared to fly solo.
During my last visit I was given homework – to work out what scares me about therapy coming to an end. I’ve had two weeks to think about it. I’m running out of time and my homework is due in a few hours – I got nothing!!
I don’t think I am scared, just sad, and I don’t know why I feel sad. I should be elated.
I’d welcome anyone else’s insight please!
Wishing you all a fabulous Friday Eve!
Cath xx
Not sure if I have caught you before you go in Cath. Why don’t you show her this wonderful post. Show her what she has done for you and then ask her for some coping mechs ? She will certainly be thrilled with how much she has helped you and that you have share this ❤❤
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Perfect timing! My appointment is in 2 hours 😁 That’s a wonderful suggestion 😍
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At the end of the day, psychologists are just like us and this would probably give her a wonderful boost and maybe she can suggest ways to cope without her. Good luck Cath. She sounds fabulous. Not all are 😘😘
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