Biting off more than you can chew?

Last week’s draw focussed on some form of poverty in my life and the need for assertiveness. As I have all I need moneywise, this poverty was more to do with my mindset, my spiritual health and wealth. I am still processing the loss of my mother last year, which has taken its toll on that aspect of me. I’ve tried to cope with overwhelming feelings of sadness and tears that spring from nowhere, in response to nothing in particular, but I’m not sure I’m really coping. I sat myself down at the bottom of the garden and had a word with myself. The result is I’m booking in with a bereavement counsellor to help me sort through everything I’m experiencing. This should boost my spiritual health (and wealth) in the long term.

Meanwhile, back to this week, and the cards drawn are once again, working hand in hand. The Angel Oracle is asking me to think about what I really want out of life, while the Ten of Wands is showing an overburdened person. This situation comes from taking on everything in the mistaken belief that somewhere, in amongst it all, I’ll find some contentment.

The oracle card is advising me to take time to work out what I do and don’t want in my life. But where to start? Every time I try to think about this, I get side-tracked by the voice that reminds me of all the things I have to do as a mum, wife and worker. There’s no getting away from those obligations… and I wouldn’t want to either. However, this line of thinking is getting me nowhere!

I rephrased the question to ‘If I could have the moon on a stick, with sparkles and glitter, what would I wish for?’ In no particular order here’s my wish list:

• Retire from corporate life with a tidy pension
• Spend more time in my greenhouse and garden. My front garden is in need of a makeover – no time while I’m working
• Be brave enough to do more tarot and oracle readings for more people, maybe even in person now that the UK is opening up again
• Go on a bee-keeping course and have my own hives

It’s a short and fun list, so why is the Ten of Wands popping up? This card is a reminder of what happens when you spread yourself too thinly. Being a natural ‘yes’ person is great for other people but not necessarily great for me. It’s also a time management card. It reminds me of a course I attended years ago. The visual I remember most clearly is the decision matrix.

• Urgent + important = do these things now
• Non-urgent + important = book time in the diary for these things
• Urgent + unimportant = delegate where possible
• Non-urgent + unimportant = file under B for bin!

I seem to remember this course also advised attendees to work smarter, not harder. Now all I have to do is employ a smidge of assertiveness as advised last week, and say the word ‘no’ with kindness and confidence, applying this old knowledge to my current life. As my Mum would say ‘try not to sweat the small stuff’.

If you could  have guaranteed success, what would you wish for in your life? How would you apply the decision matrix to offload some of your burdens?

Wishing you a safe and healthy week.

Julie xx